This summer has been a time of deep exploration for me, both literally in my travels and figuratively through asking myself those tough life questions. What ARE my non-negotiables for me to live my best life and be my best self??
I have actually been dreading writing a new post since I've gotten so far away from it these past 2 months and I didn't want to be forced to write my feelings out in a public setting as I was still sorting through them. As much as I hope that I touch someone with things that I've realized and thought out, this really is a space for me to finally get it alllll out there and share (well, some of it).
Past regrets. These are things that I don't have and quite frankly don't believe in- and I'll tell you why. Every single situation that I've put myself in, good or bad, I've learned SO much from and can take something away from it and apply it to what I'm currently going though. The best thing that I could have done for myself even though it scared the shit out of me was to go to a college in New York City where I knew not one soul, besides the guys who friended me on myspace.. Oh yeah, I was one of those & I don't think I ever deleted that profile(...scary thought). Anyways, I remember the night before we took the 12 hour drive to Wagner College.. It feels like it was yesterday.. I never cried so hard in my life-based off of fear, not my sadness. I was leaving my family, my best friends, my comfort zone.. all to explore the absolute unknown. I knew that I wanted change and I'm so glad that I listened to my gut feeling & didn't bail out. I am 100% the person that I am today because I forced myself to be uncomfortable and go after what I wanted: New York accents, bright lights, a challenge, a different perspective on life & to live out my dreams. Oh, and that guy that broke my heart over and over (and over) again- did it hurt? Hell yeah it hurt. Was it worth every single tear? At the time I definitely didn't think so and now I can say 'absolutely'. I learned so much about myself in the process.. & am continuing to do so. That is why I never regret what I choose to do, since this is what life is all about--learning & growing.
What I do regret, however, are the things that I don't do & the chances that I don't take. I do believe in regret when I choose not to push myself, because I know that I gain so much when I do. I promise you I am getting to something here.. The past year I have been blessed with so much love, family, comfort & familiarity. Those were the things that I was looking for and I'm so happy that I had the chance to fill all of those needs, find my passions again, get back on the right track and now I can truly say that because I listened to what I needed, I am in a much better place and completely ready to start this next chapter of my life, knowing who I am, what I value & what I need to live my best life.
Things I will not compromise on: living a life filled with adventure & travel, surrounding myself with positive people who hold me accountable, honest relationships, creativity, yoga/meditation, quiet 'me' time, the water/mountains/sunshine on my face, FUN (in all shapes & sizes), being passionate in every aspect of my life, living a healthy/active lifestyle & feeling inspired by my surroundings.
As far as in a relationship.. that's an entirely different story and deserves it's own post.
Stay tuned as my next adventure is still to be determined.. & in the works!!
Next stop, London with my bestest friends! T-one week!!
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